not titled

Though her eyes
She sees the world

Though her mouth
She speaks her mind

In her heart
She has faith

And through her soul
She shares her faith

With her talent
She rocks the world

With her knowledge
She takes on college

But born alone
That’s I hope not how
She’ll stay
But she can find her own way

Alone

I sit by a tree in the middle of
Nowhere.
Nothing but sand and air
How I wish I had someone
To care
Some one to rescue me from here.

I stand by a wall
Feeling a little to tall
Not wanting to walk
Down this lonely hall

I’m alone in a crowd
People talking so loud
No one talking to me
I’m the exact opposite of a
Queen bee.

I’m alone for tea
No ones called me
No one cares if am alone
Not unless they need me.

In memory of a friend who is still alive but dead to me

In memory of my friend
Who’s still alive
But dead to me

It all started when
You first walked
Away from me

That’s when the
Illness first settled in.

I noticed it eating
You away
Day by day
But how was I
To know what to say?

You preached openness,
Honesty, you took a stand,
You put a band on
Vermin and those alike around

Surprisingly the vermin
You kept were more deadly
Than the rest
They poisoned your mind
Made you sick
But still you couldn't see

So for once in my life
I’ll be the one
Holding the knife
And let you know
What need be said

It started when
It all got to your
Head you called me a fake
But you acted the snake

You said my friends
Were against you
What’s that got to do with me and you?

We took a rollercoaster ride
Which left me feeling dejavue at
Every turn

You denied this,
But you had no decency to
Do it to my face.

Three months had passed
But you never learned
Three months had passed
And I knew our
Friendship would never last

They fed you lies
And like a fly
To a trap
You fell

Even rex your ex
Knew the trouble
You’d get into

Id been wanting
To walk away
And up until today
I found it hard
I felt the guilt
And took it in
Even though
It was you
Who choose to lie
In your death bed.

And once in your
Bed you choose
To lie there and blame
All those around you
For not picking you up

So there you died
Surrounded by lies
Never wanting to
Know the truth

There I stood
Outside your room
The shadows of your life
Keeping me at bay

I would have
Apologized to you
Today if you weren’t
Such a bitch

But I thank you
For that
The guilt is gone
And now I can
Finally let you
Rest in peace.

Little girl 2

I watched from afar
A little girl In her
Yard
Where are her parents?
Where are her friends?

She brings out her dolls
For Monday afternoon tea

Tuesday she runs free

Wednesday she climbs a tree

Thursday she builds a fort

Friday she teaches herself
To ride a Bike

And Saturday she attempts to befriend
captured wild life

Sunday she gets ready for
Monday and starts her cycle all over
Again

Where are her parents?
Where are her friends?

The little girl has every thing
She could ever need
Right in her yard

She doesn’t need anyone to be happy!
She’s all happy alone!

At night when
She’d long fallen asleep
Her parents
Come home.

Trying not to wake her
As they had silent fights
She heard every word
But that never fazed her


The little girl raised herself
Knowing right from wrong
But not knowing
How to relate to any one else


Eleven years later
She takes the world
By storm
But still alone.

The now adolescent girl
Watches as her parents
Take claim to her
Talent and fame
Barely remembering her name
Oh how they should be ashamed

All I can do
Is watch this girl
There’s nothing I can do
To ease her pain
It’s up to her how she lives
Life’s game.

sun glass baby

Sun glass baby
Covers her eyes
So no one can see
Just how much she
Cries

Sun glass baby
Orders a martini
To drink away her pain

Sunglass baby
Is oh so very
Popular
But no one
Ever noticed
The self made cuts
On her arms and legs

Everyone knew
And loved you sun glass baby
Or so they said
When you were
Found dead
In your bed

Blood covered
Your shattered sun glasses

Why’d you have
To shoot your
Self in the head
Sun glass baby?

There are people
Who could have
Helped you
Sun glass baby

But she
Was all alone
No one ever called
No one ever cared
But everyone suddenly
Knew who she was
When sun glass baby
Was found dead
Several mouths
After she killed
Her self.

The girl with the helmet

The girl with the helmet
Sits under her desk
With a smile on her
Face.
Not knowing her place.

No one knows why
She does the things
She does
But people do
Ask why

The girl with the helmet
Has a smile on her face
No one knows why
Is it a silent cry?

No one knows why
She does the things
She does
But no one ever bothered
To ask her why

The girl with the helmet
Sits alone in a little
Corner or the lunch room floor
Consuming her lunch
Or painting a masterpiece
No one goes over
No one says hello

The girl with the helmet
Walks with her head held high
But only she knows why

The girl in the helmet
Is very unique
And only she know
Exactly what she seeks

The girl with the helmet
Protects her self
And speaks to fairies
And elves
The girl in the helmet
Is not crazy
She just sees things
Differently than you do

i'm like a dieing tree.

I am like a
Dieing tree.
No place or use
To grow
I’ve had my years
Of learning
I’ve had my time to grow
Though I may be at
My prime
It’s time
To go

My leaves are all gone like
Memories
Forgotten
I’ve seen all the
Unforeseen
Not knowing how long
It’s been


I’m being eaten away
Fading in to nothingness
Having no voice
I cannot scream
And
Having no eyes
I cannot cry

I am like a dieing tree
No place or use to
Grow.

Little girl


Everyone's got a past
Here’s one of a little girl
I got to know very fast

Little girl sitting in the dark
Can’t even go to the park
No park
Only the dark.

Little girl alone at the playground
During lunch
No friends

Little girl at the back of the class
No one to talk to
Don’t worry time goes very fast

Little girl why do you cry?
Not everyone's that shy!

After some years
Little girl outgrew her tears
Not even scared of her
Past fears

Bye bye baby

There several things on my mind
And if I don’t get them out I’ll pop

You never had faith in me.
You broke my heart.
You treated me like crap.
And I always felt very bad.

Well bye bye baby I’m moving on
I’ll sing my cheesy song
Right out loud
Bye bye baby I’m moving on

You held me back
You put me down
You told me no
But even so
I broke away
And now I’ll say

Bye bye baby I’m moving on
I’ll sing my cheesy song
Right out loud
Bye bye baby I’m moving on

Tell me what did I would ever do
To get this from you?
I’ve been nothing but great
And now sorry's too late

Bye bye baby I’m moving on

I’ve got a new friend
I don’t your pity
She believes me
And that’s the beauty
Of it.

Bye bye baby I’m moving on
I’ll sing my cheesy song
Right out loud
Bye bye baby I’m moving on

I still hear your voice in my head
But baby guess what
My muse is now dead
I think it’s time
For you to get lost.

Bye bye baby I’m moving on
I’ll sing my cheesy song
Right out loud
Bye bye baby I’m moving on

I’d tell it to your face
Just how I feel
But the sight of that
Might make me squeal

Bye bye baby I’m moving on
I’ll sing my cheesy song
Right out loud
Bye bye baby I’m moving on
Here’s the end baby
I’m moving on.

Thank’s em

i sometimes wonder

Some times
I wonder
Was I
Just a pawn.
The
Way you treated
Shawn

I
Sometimes
Wonder
Did you
Every
Mean
Anything
Your guts spilled

I
Sometimes
Wonder
What would you do

if you

found out?
I’ve been happy with out
You


I sometimes wonder should
I even bother to patch
Things up with your
Sorry
Pitiful
Self?.
Your
All
Alone
In this
World
And you don't
Even know it.

my poem called blaaaah

i feel blaah
I'm pretty blaah
i like being blaaah
i hate being blaaaaah
whats blaaaaah?
who else is blaaaah?
are you blaaaaah?
because i'm blaaaaah
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

perfect stranger

It all started
With you
Breaking my heart
Who could I turn to?
Mama won’t understand.

You knew I'd have
No place to go
You turn my life into
To a day-time show

You became nothing
More than a stranger
At my hearts door.

I hated you
But hated myself more
For hating you

I was as they say
"Whipped"
Forcibly bind Ed to you
Chained.

I did every thing
To make it up to you
Though I never
Did you wrong

You were my sun,
My moon, my life,
And now
I was dead
Left to rot
In open nothingness.

That’s really when I meet
The perfect stranger.
She wrapped her angel wings
Around my heartless soul
Putting her lips
To mine the sun began
To shine
But still incomplete
I was
She wasn't you
She could never be you

You were my first
My last, my every move
I'd loved you...
And betrayed her

Still I search for
Love.
What does it feel?
Like?
Does every one feel
The same?
Can one see another?
And instantly know
That it’s with them they shall spend
Their life with to their dying day?
I don't know but that's what I seek,
Answers

i'm willing to ...

Even though
You’re mad at me
For a thing I
Have not done
I'm willing to
Forgive you
If you learn to
Grow the bloody hell
Up
I never set out to hurt you
You just hurt yourself
You have several flaws in character
But you'll never blame your self

Everything I ever told you was to
Help yourself
All the crap I did for you,
I wouldn't have done for someone else
You let others get between
What should not have been broken

You let stupid Lie's destroy
All I worked for...
Your happiness.
So when you finally realize
What an ass you've been
Don’t come crawling to my door
Cause of all things I am sure
I don't want to waste my Pity
On some thing stupid
And impure
Consider this...
I'm done
I'm strong
And I'm moving on,
but i forgive you

naturally, normally

naturally normally i would
never dream of letting you go
naturally normal
it would have been nice
having you at the show.
but at the end of the day
I'm not natural nor
an i normal
so letting you go
for not going to my
show is not the way I'm going to go
my reason for turning around
and walking away
leaving all things i want to
say, unsaid
is because I'm sick of
this never ending cycle of
misery you keep putting
me though.
more than once
you turned your back
and walked away
never quite telling me
what you had to say
so to day is my day
to do the same.

circles

we dance in circles
its hard to understand
we dance in circles
in front of the grandstand
its difficult to understand
since were of two different
ecentracies.

looking away ...

always looking away
to a new and better day

all these words
i hate to say

back to a time
when we were gay

driving myself crazy
while you were away
laying in bed feeling lazy
unable to sleep
to many memories to keep.
hate the fact I'm one
of the families black sheep.
this beauty's not
skin deep
its just sort of in a heap.
loneliness is what i seek
drenched in an unwanted awkwardness
i reek
solitude and charm,
being spun right back into your arms.

untitled

i look to others
to find my way
i looke to others
to know what to
say.

i look within
for knowlage.
i look within
for creativity.

the qustion however
is how am i
suppose to expand
if the people
i turn to for help
dont have
my best intrest at heart?

"awkward silence"

she sits there silent
across from me
looking at me
i start to feel queasy
these feelings come real easy
then i say what i always
say
" awkared silence!"
she response the way she
always does with a smirk on her face
" its only awkared for you!"
i smile or laugh
silence
our friend
memories run crazy
in my mind
a time and place
where only happiness
is a cherished find
a welcomed silence between our
two cazy minds

untitled

as you sat there
crying in my arms
i told you i loved you
at least i think i did

as i sat there
holding you
i felt something
cold coming from you
is our past still
haunting you?

i swear every day
that I'm over you
that I've replaced you
but have i

I've been told
all these poems are
about you
nothing to do with
the fact your my muse.

my mind is torn
between you and
another.

TO mr&da

I TOLD YOU I LIKED YOU
SOME THING I NORMALLY WOULDN'T DO
I TOLD YOU I LIKED YOU
WHY COULDN'T YOU LIKE ME TOO?
YOU PLAYED AND DECEIVED ME
KEEPING ME NEXT TO YOU
YOU PLAYED AND DECEIVED ME
LIKE THAT GIRL IN " FAR FROM XANADU"
OR MAYBE I READ TO MUCH
INTO YOUR ACTIONS...
UN RIGHTFULLY MISJUDGING YOU
DAMN IT!
WHAT DID I DO?!

See I hate it when you get mad and stop talking to me!

See i hate it
when you get mad
and stop talking to me

I don't get the point
cant you see?

I was only having fun
since you looked like
you needed some.

I hate it
when you get mad
and stop talking
to me
it gets me
so irritated and angry
I know if I get
so irritated I should
stop doing the things I do
that I should stop and
just talk to you.
but how can I
talk to you
when you never
say what you
mean till it's
to late?
I hate it
when you get mad
and stop talking
to me
I have my own problems
cant you see?
and its not like you
don't know me,
so why you get
so angry is way beyond me.
I hate it when your this mad at me
makes my brain feel
... queasy.
I hate it
I hate it
I hate it.

pinks last to know

Last To Know lyrics

[Chorus]
Why was I the last to know
That you weren't coming to my show you coulda
Called me up to say "good luck"
You coulda called me back you stupid fuck
Why was I the last to know?

[Verse 1]
First date, we ate sushi and
It went well, I was funny and
You said I was a cutie
That's the last thing I heard from you
I left the tickets at the door for you
I had to tell my mom that there was
No more room
You didn't show, that was so uncool
You coulda called me back

So i guess this means that we're
Not friends anymore, I heard
It's me you're asking for, I thought
I'd see you at the show
You said you'd go

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
After the date, I wouldn't go
Home with you
I wouldn't put my heels in the
Air for you
You tried to get me to do things
I just won't do
Last I heard from you
Here is how I guess the story goes
You woulda came if I was a ho
F*** for parts that's just not how
I roll, move it on down the road

So I guess, we, shouldn't be
Friends anymore, sick of hearin'
That it's me you're askin' for
'Cause I thought I'd see you at the
Show, you said you'd go!

[Chorus]

You thought you know me
I guess you didn't
You thought you had me
I think you didn't
You thought you knew me
But you didn't

"i love you dear"

i spread my wings
in an attempt to fly
but lately all i can do is cry

my mind is blown
my hearts a stone

but while your here
i'll pretend to be ok

i lie to you every day
from every smile
to every tear

the only words i need to hear
are
"i love you dear"

but knowlage is power
and i know this fact
you'll never again love me
and thats, that

control

control

In a place and time where word are strong
The revelations we have are so under heard
The things we know we ignore
To have to relearn at a future date.
The things I’ve learned, I've learned before
The things I see I’ve seen before
The past I revisit every day for the present will never come.

In a time and place where seeing is believing
The things I see, I don’t believe
For the mind has a lot of tricks
Nothing we can every truly fix

And in a time where mindless drones
Control our ever move a revolution
Will arise and our future will be saved.

Friendship

Friendship.
Who do you call a friend?
Who can you call a friend?
From the time your born friends are pushed
Upon you, from play dates to play grounds

No one really wants to be alone.
Emotional support …?
No that’s just an excuse.

Friendships when do they end?
No one really knows,
How long do they last...?

My poem is about my friend Melissa,
Our friendship had value, emotions, strength
Sugar and spice and all things nice.
But for some reason
I feel an inevitable end.
And an aftermath
That shall change us completely.
But letting go is really up to me.
and to day i've made that choise.

words

words

With words I am lost
With a pen
I am free
I feel the things, I can not see
And yearn to be, what I can not be.
If the words I write
Would come to life
Then I could say all
That need be said.
What proof of luck would I have?
If I spoke and was unheard
What a waist of time it would most definitely be
But if I wrote with sweat and tears, with
The blood that runs though my veins I would most definitely be heard.

unbelievable

unbelievable

In a world where
Love is so lost
The one we love that
Never had
To the one I’ve
Never seen
To her/ him
Were always been
Your love so true it’s unbelievable

i feel

rose's are red
violets are blue
why do you hurt me
the way you do?

i pray and hope
rinse my mouth with scope
but you walk though me
like smoke.

i fell in love with
a teenage fairy
my life is anything
but ordinary.
still alone i feel
but I've got to
learn to deal.