" i wish i could quit you "

The phrase “I wish I could quit you “came from broke back mountain.
I find it hard to pay attention when I haven't seen you.
I’m constantly thinking about you...
I’m frequently late to class so I can walk you to class.... in my own way.
You mean the world to me but boy how I wish I could quite you.
You make me sick, you piss me off but time and time again I wish I could quit you.
Having alienated my self from the world.
To save myself from heart break
I have alienated myself from the world
To save that innocent little girl
From the horrors of an empty soul
love and lust might seem the same
but to love is to endlessly give
and to lust is to just take and take
so to save myself from heart break
i wish i could quit you
but at the same time just being by your side
and getting your loving embrace
keeps me safe so safe in fact its like a dream
and all dreams end and we wake up so before we break up
or after we make up I'll let you know this one little fact
i wish i could quit you
you wonderful old hag.

I can’t

I’m sick of trying to fit into your equation
Tired of waiting by the phone
Done with checking my email
And through with driving myself mad

My incessant need to fix every thing
Shall be my downfall
But perishing knowing it was a waste
Hurts far worse than could any blade

Wrap your hands around my artery
In an attempt to start my heart beating again
Oh wait I forgot you didn’t care ….

I can’t be your second in command
I can’t be your back up plan
I can’t keep holding us up
It’s like holding water in a broken cup
And just for some commond knowledge
I can’t keep you when I go to college
You're just stress and thinking it over
Makes my life a mess

I suck at life
I know I do
I’m like pulling healthy teeth
But under all the lost and pain
I’m really very sweet
And you have lots to gain

I guess you know that
You should by now
I’m that kind of idiot
That carries my heart in my hand
Or is it on my sleeve?
But ether way babe
I now must leave

For I can’t …
I just can’t
Be that girl
Be that friend were at an end and I must make amends
The confetti and fire works
Shall hide my water works
It’s not that easy
Saying good bye
But you bring me nothing but inner misery
And no love is worth that kind of pain
No love is worth the constant rain.

So I can’t I just can’t
I can’t do this any more…
……
Sorry.

you

I love you ,you love me not
I need you ,you need me not
I want you ,you want me not
I care about you …
You care about me not
Your every thing
I’m nothing
Were something
A golden thing
To bad were done
Because it was lots of fun.

Our Love Song

A fiddle…
A guitar….
The sounds of our song
It’s really hard to comprehend what went wrong
My I-pod blasting
My mind completely gone
When it’s done I shall play it all over again

Laying in bed thinking about your beautiful baby blues
I guess I should have seen the clues
Was I so wrapped up in my insecurities
To notices your hidden sad smiles.

Walking thought the park all gloomy and down
I-pod blasting our song
Didn’t take too long to find my way
To our bench beneath that old cherry tree
Back when you told me “baby can’t you see
It’s just you and me”

I may not have been up to scratch
I may have not been up to par
I may have been second - rate
But in any case
My remorse can’t make up for
My overlooking the tears in your eyes
As you walked out my front door.

Missing the sounds of you tapping at my
Bed room window,
Hanging out and riding in your car.
The sound of your breath as we fall asleep on the phone
Getting your text as I leave my last class
Us holding hands as we lay in the grass
Coming up for a name to our song
The one we wrote right before we broke up…

The song of our love the sun the stars and the moon
The one that’s shines bright
Like a huge light saying
Boy you’re not all that bright
For your all alone
Just as stars vanish
Leaving all life gone.

like a dream come true
today you
Walked right up to me
Wrapping your arms around me
Telling me baby how am I to live
My life with out you?

The one

I sit alone in this lonely hall
Wondering where you went
Can’t keep holding this place
My hearts out for rent.
People keep wondering how long I’ll vent.
I’ll vent till I find that love...
The one we shared.
The one we lost, the one we threw away.
And until that day I’m glued
Right here till you get your senses
And flood back here to me.
For can't you see to me
You’re the only one.
the only one
the one.

imagine me and you

imagine me and you I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together
I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life
Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life
Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Happy together
So happy together
So happy together

How can I hate what I never knew?

Forgotten
Left to stew
You used me
Then threw me
I thought I knew you;
Obviously I didn't
And not just for the obvious reasons.
I stood up for my self today
And your proud words I don't need to hear you say.
You left me...
You left me after promising you'd never leave,
Never go away.
But when the better option came along,
The obvious one in your heart,
You left.
You lied to me; you made me believe you,
I even fell in love with you.
I don't hate you
I can't hate you,
How can I hate what I never knew?

One simple poem

This may be just
One simple poem,
But it stands for many,
Many times
That I’ve thought of you
And smiled,
You were a special part
Of my life because you brought
Warm and happy thoughts-
Thoughts about the great
Conversations we've had
The good times we've shared
The way I enjoyed you so much.
So I just wanted to tell you
That you have been on my mind,
And you know what?
I’m glad your there.

I find it hard to speak But if I could here’sWhat I’d say

I find it hard to speak
From the heart
But if I could here’s
What I’d say

I like you!
You always make
My day.

I wake each morning
With a smile on my
Face,
Just thinking of you.

You’ll never know,
Even if you read this
That its you I’m talking
About.

These things’s I wish to
I could say
It makes me want to shout.

I don’t think she’s the one
For you
I don’t think she’s
even fit for under your shoe
I maybe at a compromising point
Behind this screen door
I can’t tell you how I feel
But if I send it out psychically
Maybe just maybe it might get to you.

So close your eyes
And take a breath
And if its you
I think you’ll know.
Hello I love you wont you tell me your
Name.

Harassment

Hurry, hurry, hurry
Fast, fast, fast
Are you done?
Well hurry up!

I give, give, and give
You take, take, and take
I’m not your slave
Stop harassing me.

I’ll do what I want.
I’m sick of your tyranny,
You’ll never learn
So leave me alone.

I’m sick of giving
So stop asking!

I live my life
You bother me
I bother you
You pull out a knife
What do you want?

I turn away you follow
I stopped
You walked
Keep walking I’m done.

These answers I seek , Through the eyes of another.

These answers I seek

Through the eyes of another.



It all started
With you
Breaking my heart
Who could I turn to?
Mama won’t understand.

You knew I'd have
No place to go
You turn my life into
To a day-time show

You became nothing
More than a stranger
At my hearts door.

I hated you
But hated myself more
For hating you

I was as they say
"Whipped"
Forcibly binded to, you
Chained.

I did every thing
To make it up to you
Though I never
Did you wrong?

You were my sun,
My moon, my life,
And now
I was dead
Left to rot
In open nothingness.

That’s really when I meet
The perfect stranger.
She wrapped her angel wings
Around my heartless soul
Putting her lips
To mine the sun began
To shine
But still incomplete
I was
She wasn't you
She could never be you

You were my first
My last, my every move
I'd loved you...
And betrayed her

Still I search for
Love.
What does it feel?
Like?
Does every one feel
The same?
Can one see another?
And instantly know
That it’s with them they shall spend
Their life with to their dying day?
I don't know but that's what I seek,
Answers.

You know what?

You know what?
I hate your mood swings
I hate your ups and downs
I’ll deal with you if you’re bipolar
But I don’t give a shit
If you’re just a bicth

I don’t know why I even bother
You just make things harder

I’m trying hard to be your
Friend
But right now
I don’t give a flying
Rat’s ass
If were at an end

You gave me chance after chance
So you say
But this has not been
A fun slay ride

I’m sick of this playing
This annoying game
By your rules.
I’m sick of both you and your rules.

I’m reluctant to let you go
For a simple sentimental
Reason.
But your not
Worth this much bother.
I like you as much as you
Like your father.

I don’t want to be your friend
If that’s what this is

I don’t want to be your friend period.

I’m just all fine and dandy without you
This time I’m really done.

FUBOS

I’m like a stain on the wall
Walking alone though this dark and lonely hall
I’ve been in too many lives to remember
Didn’t mean anything anyway
I’ve just left an unpleasant spot
Because I tried so hard to stay
Never wanting to go away
To be a never ending memory

But
Life is just FUBOS any way
And that’s just how one starts to stray
Believing life’s like a bad dream
And no ones there to hear you scream

What’s the purpose life?
Tell me now so I can put down the knife.
Don’t worry all stains can be washed away
Or painted over.
What more do you want me to say?
Why do you care if I mean all that I say?

Life’s just FUBOS anyway.
Silent pleas with my self
To see the qualities in me no one else does.

The one who gets me I’ve never met
Their words wash over me
Like Alicia Beth –
Save your pity
Save your strength
Time fades all scars
And words turn to whispers through the years
Then silently start to fade.

The darkest hour comes before the light
But life’s just one big fight its just one BIG FUBOS
ANY WAY

(FUBOS = fucked up box of shit)