In memory of a friend who is still alive but dead to me

In memory of my friend
Who’s still alive
But dead to me

It all started when
You first walked
Away from me

That’s when the
Illness first settled in.

I noticed it eating
You away
Day by day
But how was I
To know what to say?

You preached openness,
Honesty, you took a stand,
You put a band on
Vermin and those alike around

Surprisingly the vermin
You kept were more deadly
Than the rest
They poisoned your mind
Made you sick
But still you couldn't see

So for once in my life
I’ll be the one
Holding the knife
And let you know
What need be said

It started when
It all got to your
Head you called me a fake
But you acted the snake

You said my friends
Were against you
What’s that got to do with me and you?

We took a rollercoaster ride
Which left me feeling dejavue at
Every turn

You denied this,
But you had no decency to
Do it to my face.

Three months had passed
But you never learned
Three months had passed
And I knew our
Friendship would never last

They fed you lies
And like a fly
To a trap
You fell

Even rex your ex
Knew the trouble
You’d get into

Id been wanting
To walk away
And up until today
I found it hard
I felt the guilt
And took it in
Even though
It was you
Who choose to lie
In your death bed.

And once in your
Bed you choose
To lie there and blame
All those around you
For not picking you up

So there you died
Surrounded by lies
Never wanting to
Know the truth

There I stood
Outside your room
The shadows of your life
Keeping me at bay

I would have
Apologized to you
Today if you weren’t
Such a bitch

But I thank you
For that
The guilt is gone
And now I can
Finally let you
Rest in peace.